I went swimming tonight with my friend, Nick. It was
indoors with dumb dance music and strobe lights. I could only think
about Kelli.
She said she can't trust me right now. I don't blame her and I
didn't expect her to. I'm no better than the made-up character who
turned out to be a girl. She has no more reason to trust me. She
said it was mean of her to not trust me, I don't see how. Trust
isn't something that is a given right. It's not my right to be
trusted, it's a privilege.
And if the made-up character sounded just as trustworthy as me,
or more, then how can she trust me when he turned out to be a lie?
I'm not sad that she doesn't trust me, not at all. I'm sad that she
can't trust anyone, it's not her fault like she thinks, just like
it's not my fault if I don't think someone is pretty.
If anyone has any suggestions of how I can help Kelli, whom I deeply care about, please feel free to tell me, even over AIM. It
would be greatly appreciated. I don't know what else to do. All I
can do is try to be happy and she will see that and be happy for
that moment. It would help if I could be there with her for real. I
want to say she just needs time, but I don't know if time will bring
good or bad her way. I will try my best to have all the good that
can happen come her way.
But it's late, I'm tired. *sleeps*.................in my bed of
course.