Kelli and I were discussing (not arguing) about what would happen with us over the next 5 yeats (years) because she has to take college for that long and I don't want to move there and skip going to church for that long. I just realized that I am going to have college then too, just not as long, so for most of the time I'll have to be here for college anyway. She doesn't think it's possible that I like her, which of course doesn't reassure me of the probability of any kind of relationship with each other in the future. And she thought out what could happen in the future with us, and I hadn't thought of anything besides just bits and pieces so after she told her story and asked me to tell mine, I didn't have one and she said that maybe we aren't meant for each other. Then she felt stupid and thinks she made a fool of herself because she's the only one who looks before she leaps, but that's not true. I really admire her for thinking about the future like that, because all I ever thought about was the things like holding her and falling asleep in each other's arms.

She doesn't like being held or kissed, but she doesn't not like them; it depends on the person. So either she will hate being held by me or she just won't feel either way. I am willing to keep to myself when we meet in person if I have to, but you have to understand that I've never held anyone or kissed anyone besides relatives, so you can see how I really want to, and now that I love someone, I don't want to do it with anyone besides her. She is pretty and sweet and nice and very selfless. I will love her always, and most likely only her.

Anyway, I was a runner at my job today. I had to look at the reciept and put all the food into either bags or on trays and give them to the costumers. I also had the job of refilling things and taking out the trash and cleaning the bathrooms which wasn't bad at all. Mostly girls work there, and all the managers who are training people are females. A few are attractive, but I have no interest whatsoever. While I was working, 2 of my friends came in. They are brothers and I haven't seen one of them for like 4 years. They are Nick's cousins. Philip and Russel. Philip is either 19 or 20, then Thomas is my age, Jordan is 16 or 17, and Russel is 15 or 16. They used to be my best friends and went to my church, but then their parents went a different way when out church split and I haven't seen them for a while. But because of that, I became best friends with Nick, lol.

Well, after they left, Nick and his family came in, except for his dad because his parents are divorced (his dad went away from our church in a recent split). I got a break and I sat with them and ordered something small. Then while I was on break, Bro. Don and Sis. Janet came in (Nick's grandparents). Ashley's mom doesn't like our church and she will only let her come to church and bible study if she can come too, and she plans on glaring during it. There is a field trip for Andrea and Ashley's class tomorrow and Ashley might stay with us tomorrow night instead of going home, which will make her mom really mad. My dad said that Ashley's brother from the Army is visiting and if Ashley stays here, then Ashley's mom, stepdad (drunk) and her brother might come over here. Both guys had mentioned something of physical harm. It's gonna be an interesting day tomorrow. I'm not worried though.