Well, Kelli, huh? Man, that's a lot to think about, she means so much to me, where do I start? First of all, she is better friends with me than anyone. We are best friends, but it wasn't always like that. I met Kelli on AIM, well, actually she met me. She IMed me because my profile said I don't cuss and I don't like it. She doesn't like it either (I don't blame her). When I first met her she told me her name, but not her last name. I kept bugging her about it and got her to give me hints. I finally guessed it, hehe, and then she gave me her phone number, email address, and home address as well! I gave her mine. I was still going out with Kelly at the time, and she was going out with her online boyfriend, Skot. Kelli and I were okay friends, not best friends. We didn't know each other very well. She is the one who explained to me the vast world of depression. Kelly had told me before, but I didn't really learn anything about it until Kelli came along. Kelli also introduced me to the concept of "cutting". I had never heard of people hurting themselves to relieve stress until I met her. I asked Kelly later and she said that she had cut before also. Kelli and I became better friends as time went on. I met Skot on AIM through Kelli soon after. We became friends as well, but he can anger easily, but he always apologizes later. He has depression too. Kelli said that she can relate to him. She told me that she also knows Zac from the band Hanson, and her mom knows their mom. Only online though. Kelli had another friend. She did not tell me his name when she told me about him, because he didn't want anyone to know and he only wanted to talk to Kelli. Kelli was really worried about him and was trying to help him with something, or to prevent him from doing something. I found out later that she was trying to prevent him from cutting, because he cut bad enough to be in the hospital. She was going to email him a lot and I asked her to give him my screen name and email address because I wanted to help also. This is when I found out that Kelli had a diary on some website called TOD and so did her friend. They often noted each other. I found out from Kelli that the boy she was so worried about was indeed Zac! She had talked to his brother, Taylor also. Well, I met Zac and we became good friends. It was like a friend triangle. Sometimes I felt that they were closer than Kelli and I were, but Kelli told me that Zac felt I was closer to her, lol. I often tried to help Zac with his problems, and I even drew him a picture, but he couldn't give out his home address. Anyway, around this time, Kelly broke up with me, and I asked Skot for advice since he has had relationships before. Kelly also was upset at how I talked about Kelli, but I never knew it bugged her, and she talked about her guy friends before also. Skot talked to Kelly for a while, and then told me to just back off for now, there might be a chance for me yet. We never got back together, but Skot and Kelly were friends now. I met another of Kelli's friends named Josh. He liked Kelli "that way". Skot sometimes did things to confuse Kelli. He would sound like he doesn't like her, then he would like her again. He also said weird things and hurt Kelli with it. But he didn't like hurting her. But back to Zac. I admit, I felt left out from Zac and Kelli, because they had been friends longer and seemed closer. They also had a diary which they talked to each other in it, and had special names for each other. She trusted him more than me also. One night I was talking to him, and I decided to make a diary for myself. He said that it's good, it really helps sometimes. So I made it and if you want you can check it out from the beginning, lol. Around this time I started liking Kelli like I wanted to go out with her. I hadn't felt this way about her before. Zac knew about how I felt about Kelli. He didn't seem to have these feelings for her, and was glad to hear about mine. He didn't like Skot from what he heard about him from Kelli. Kelli has a problem with trust, and we were discussing what proof any of us have that the other is really who they say they are. I could be a 50-year-old lady. We decided that since Kelli and I have talked on the phone that there wasn't any doubt there, and Kelli has talked to Josh. But, none of us have talked to Zac, because he can't give out the private line because his parents wouldn't allow it. The famous have to be cautious like that. Anyway, one day Kelli was on and said she has to tell me something. She was talking to Zac, but he didn't show up on my buddy list. He was using a different screen name. His real screen name. Kelli told me that "Zac" was actually a girl named Becky who had pretended to be Zac this whole time. She even play Isaac and their mom, who Kelli's mom had first talked to. Her friend played Taylor. She is a real Hanson fan, and she knows a lot about them. She made up everything, about the depression, the cutting, the hospital, for months. "Zac" even ran away to Canada and Kelli was so worried about him. Of course, Becky didn't really, she just stayed off "Zac's" screen name for that time. She had done all this to relate to Kelli with her depression and to make Kelli like her, as well as me, though she didn't mean for me to get caught up in it. She never had anyone really like how for who she was, so this was her way to feel special. This made her feel important, being Zac. We cared about her. Well, naturally Kelli and I were shocked and this really hit her hard. The one person she trusted more than anyone turned out to be a fake, to be lying. She has always been wary of trusting people because trust has always led to pain all through her life, and this just made it worse. Of course I really tried to help and comfort her, but I knew it was asking way too much for her to trust me...