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Friends: Kelli Cont. |
1/23/2002 |
| ...And, as if this wasn't bad enough, right after this happened, while Kelli was still really affected by it, Josh started fighting with Skot. First Kelli had lost her best friend at the time, and now one of her good friends was fighting with her boyfriend. Josh was telling Skot to break up, leave Kelli so he could go out with her. During this time, Skot would be a little upset with Kelli, and Josh seemed a little upset at her too. They would cuss each other out a lot. Kelli was really worried during this and was not enjoying it at all. I told her that she could talk to me and I'm on friendly terms with both of them and I can talk to them. She can use me to talk to them. She said no, she won't use me. Skot, being depressed himself would say that Kelli should just break up with him. He doesn't want Kelli to like him, but he doesn't want to hurt her. But he would tell Kelli that he doesn't like her talking to Josh. Josh would ask Kelli why she stays with Skot and would almost drill her to go out with him instead. Kelli felt like hiding, so she made a screen name which she didn't give to anyone, except me. :) But then she felt that was like using me because they would tell me to tell Kelli things. She still has this screen name and uses it when she doesn't want to be bothered, but of course she always likes to talk to me. Josh kept at it with Skot, even though I asked them to stop. Skot would tell me that he would be happy if Kelli went out with me, that I'm better than him, but he doesn't want her going out with Josh. Josh would tell me how he wants Kelli so much, that she is his world, but never sounded like he was jealous of me. He said that Skot sometimes would say he didn't have a girlfriend to other people. Josh finally convinced Skot that he was only hurting her, and Skot almost broke up with her, but she talked him out of it. She said she's his for as long as he wants her. Of course I really wanted to go out with her, but I decided to keep it to myself for Kelli's sake. She really didn't need me telling her I like her also. Skot talked with Kelly, my online ex, and they were friends from when he helped me. He asked Kelly out and she said no because she doesn't like him that way, and I would probably be sad if she did. He asked her out another time and was denied. He then really felt bad at what he did to Kelli by asking someone else out, and he started really putting himself down. Then he asked her out a third time a different day and she said okay. I guess she was upset at me about talking about religion with her. So Kelli was now single, but I was visiting Idaho at this time. While away, Josh asked her out and wouldn't take no for an answer, so she agreed. I come back from Idaho to find that they are going out now. She didn't like him as more than a friend and she was only going out with him to make him happy for a little bit. She broke up with him a week later. So now she was single again, but I didn't want to go "Oh! Now will you go out with me??" because I wanted to be a friend and not selfish. I felt she needed a friend more than another boyfriend. Soon after, her friend in real life, Scott, started seeing her a lot, and he almost found out about her scars from cutting. She only wanted her online friends to know about that. She had imagined showing them to me someday, and next time she saw him, I guess she thought of him as me and showed them to him. He asked her out later and she said ok. I met him soon afterwards and we are friends now too. He sometimes talks to me about Kelli and how they are doing. He once told me he thinks I would be better for her than him. He doesn't hide anything from me about her and him. I am sometimes his counselor about their relationship, lol. She accidentally IMed him with her secret screen name that only I knew, so now he knows it too. He likes physical touch and she doesn't really, but she is trying to be more open with him. I always feel good talking to her. It's like, its nice talking to my friends, really nice sometimes, but I always feel like there are no worries and everything will be okay when I'm talking to her. Kinda like when you get a bill and you don't know if you have enough money to pay it. You think you do, but you aren't sure. Then someone pays you money that they owed you and it's way more than enough to pay the bill, and you are relieved. That's the feeling I get talking to her.
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