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Problemless with problems
by Rebel Leader
Location: Where angels lose their way...
Age: 22    Sex : M
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Good Friends: Bonnie 1/23/2002
Note: The "good friends" entries are in order of when I met them.

I came home from something and Nick was over at my house. I think it was Sunday, and we usually go to each other's house after church. Like if Nick comes over, then Amy might go to their house to see Cory, and Matt to see Ethan. I was gone somewhere and when I came back, Nick was on the computer on AIM. He was using the microphone and talking to this girl named Bonnie that he just met. He told her about me coming home and that he's at my house, and we 3 talked a little on the mic. Then I got in the shower, and afterwards I got on my screen name. She IMed me. She told me that right when she heard that "Jason is home" and heard my voice, it was like a love at first sight kinda thing, except it was love at first sound, lol. We talked and she would talk about sexual things like blow jobs and stuff. She would ask me things about it, and I asked her why she was talking about it. As it turns out, all the guys she's known only think about that and that's her view of guys, and she was trying to be nice to me and talk about what she thought I liked. I told her I don't think about that stuff, and I don't believe in sex before marriage, which I don't. She said she believes the same thing, and she's glad to meet a guy who thinks that too. She is white, but goes to school with mostly African-Americans. Some of them like her, but she doesn't like them that way. She has been to parties where guys would take her into the back room, and basically every guy she was close to would want only one thing. She kinda just accepted that, since she didn't know any guys were different. She showed me a picture of herself. She's pretty, and she was wearing her prom dress, which looks good on her. She told me that every guy she showed tried to figure out if she had a bra on underneath it. I told her the first thing I noticed was her bangs. Then her face, then the rest. She said thank you. She liked me "that way", and I don't know if she still does. I felt bad turning her down, but we decided to be online brother and sister, so she's happy with that, and so am I. :) She's 14 I think. She said she's still a virgin, but one time she was at a party and she was really tired and fell asleep on a bed in the back room, and when she woke up, her bra was messed up, and she had some, um, stuff from a guy on her hand. Yucky. She asked me to be her counselor and I said okay. Sometimes she comes to me and says, "I need to talk to my counselor and big brother." Hehe. One time I was talking to her and she said her parents think she's on drugs because she is having unusual mood swings. They want to test her, and if she's not taking drugs, then they will make her see a shrink. 2 or 3 of her best friends killed themselves, and so did this one guy who asked her out online, and she said yes. He killed himself the next day. No wonder she had mood swings! But that wasn't the only reason. She found out she was pregnant, meaning she was raped. She didn't know she had been though. She was really scared, and couldn't sleep at night, and I tried to be there for her. She doesn't believe in abortion, and she might have her friend's mom adopt the twins, because she adopts kids. I've talked to her recently, but not about anything big. She is doing better now, and we still say lylas and lylab which means love you like a sis/bro. Nick still talks to her also.

 
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