| We had nachos, since that's all they served. I had a
virgin margarita, lol. We went to the Double Tree Inn after that
since that's where the prom was. We got more pictures there and then
we danced of course. I busted a move! LOL. This whole time though,
even while getting pictures at everyone's house, I was thinking how
she should be Kelli, and I should be at her prom instead, and how
she doesn't have a date and I hardly know Estella. But I tried to
enjoy her and the time I spent, since that's what Kelli would want.
I know Kelli would want me to go out with her, or find someone who's
good for me, but I can only do that and enjoy it if I have feelings
for them, and how can I if I never give anyone a chance? If I close
everyone out in my mind because I feel that I'm to be with Kelli,
and I'll never feel about anyone as much as I feel about her, then I
won't find anyone because I won't give them a chance. I really
really tried to be happy with Estella, and give her as much of a chance
as I could, but I kept wishing Kelli was in her place. Maybe I need
to get over Kelli like everyone seems to keep subtly telling me,
even Kelli. At the dance, during a slow dance, I of course put my
arms around her. When I did, I wished I could do this with Kelli at
her prom, or just anywhere. I looked around and it looked like all
the couples dancing were boyfriend and girlfriend, with the girls
laying their head on the guy's shoulder and the guy stroking her
hair. I felt like the only one who was there with someone else
besides the one they wanted to be with. Some of the guys even kissed
their date, and I thought of when I was at Kelli's house, we didn't
even kiss. To me, what we did at Kelli's house was something I only
dreamt of (nothing bad of course) but I started thinking that maybe
people did that all the time and it didn't mean anything special. I
felt so much like a beginner. Like I think something is really nice,
and someone else might think it's normal. It was like my eyes opened
and I realized I have a lot less than I thought I had. Anyway,
during the last half of the night, I didn't think of Kelli hardly at
all, because Estella sat at a table more than danced and we talked.
She told me about how her ex went into the Marines and her heart
tells her to be with him, but she doesn't want to wait for 2 years,
so she's exploring. Her feet hurt so I went out in the hall with her
and massaged her feet. She knows I don't like her that way, and she
seems to be okay with it, and she said it's way too early to go out
anyway since we hardly know each other. At midnight, the prom was
over (though he didn't play the song I requested "Another One Bites
The Dust"). We got back in the limo and Adam's mom was in there now,
adding to the group. The adults were drunk on the way home, saying
gross stuff. They had just gone to a dirty shop. We went to Adam's
parents' house and Adam and his mom had an argument with lots of
cussing and yelling. Later she was crying and Adam calmed down.
Estella gave me a pretty, blue, glass rose. Adam drove me home and
that was that.
Sunday:
We went to church, except my dad, Amy, and Catie. My dad has
pnemonia, Amy was there to take care of him, and Catie was a little
sick with something. After church, my dad had this talk with me
about how I proved a point to him about not liking responsibility by
going to the prom and taking the chance I could lose my job. He said
a man would have went to work and told the girl he would pay her
back for the stuff. He said he can't believe I did that, and that I
don't have enough respect for God. That's the gist of it. I asked my
mom if I should call Wal-Mart and ask, "So, do I still work there?"
I was kinda being funny. She half smiled, half looked like she
didn't know. I called and asked for a Manager and guess who
answered. Wyatt, the same guy I talked to before the prom. Great. I
asked if I worked today, and he said, "Yeah, at 3."
At work, 2 of the carry-outs involved him, and he didn't say
anything about me not showing up, and all the associates I talked to
about what happened said they would be surprised if they had fired
me over that. Well, that's about it. Overall, I had a good time.
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