| I haven't felt like doing hardly anything lately.
Sure I went to see the movie with my dad, and I really wanted to see
that movie, but I wasn't very excited to go see it. We did pleasant
things, but I didn't have a very good day anyway. Carly has been
busy and not having time for me, and giving the impression that I'm
not really special anymore. I don't know, maybe everything's the
same, I just had some illusion that I was special before. Tracy is
nice to talk to, but she refuses to hug me and looks at me weird if
I flirt at all. This new really cute girl at work named Elisabeth
seems to like being around me, but she has a boyfriend and they
moved from Indiana together. Becky has an online boyfriend whom she
really loves and she is on her way to move there with him. I've
really enjoyed talking to her lately, and I hope for the best, and I
hope this relationship works out for her since it started online and
it's the general idea that online things don't work out, but I have
a feeling they will be happy. As for me, I'm just Jason. Nice guy.
I'm told I would be a very good boyfriend, and that I just haven't
found the right one. Well, I know plenty of people who haven't found
the right one but have enjoyed some romance. Basically, people think
I would make a good boyfriend for someone else. Well, that sure
helps. I'm just tired of being lonely. I, at least, want someone who
likes the idea of dating me. What is it that other guys have? Looks?
Personality? Luck? Connections? Tricks? Well, it's no one's fault,
it's just life. Mine's just shared with no one. |
