First of all, I saw the funniest shirt! It said, "I still miss my ex, but my aim is improving." LOL, that just cracks me up.

While I was outside pushing carts near the associate parking lot (the managers that care mostly about that section of the parking lot were there, so I spend more time on that area) I saw Carly leaving the store, apparently going home. I found that a little odd since she usually closes, but oh well. I guess I was between her and her car, since she walked right past me, and had this frown on her face like she was confused about something. I didn't know if it was my goofy-looking gloves, or the cold, or just something else on her mind. Well this diary is the only thing I've told anything about her since she made known to me her disapproval of my talking about her to co-workers, so she hopefully won't be bugged by people complaining to her about my whining. I know I should just get over it, but we were once good friends, and hung out a lot, and now suddenly that's all gone. And even though I don't want a friend who will ignore me, especially for this long, and part of me says to just forget about her totally, the other part of me still hopes we can be friends again. But the latter part is losing the battle.

And I also talked to Tammy. I told her about how one of my friends online (since Carly was online at the time) told me I'm not as nice as I think, and I asked her if she feels the same way, and just hasn't been telling me. For all I know, a lot of my friends could think that, but just not tell me to my face. She said she thinks I'm nice, and not to worry about what that girl said. I can't please everyone. She said she's never heard me talk bad about anyone, and she's probably the person I tell stuff to the most of my real life friends. But there are still people who think I'm a jerk. At one time Becky did, just like Carly does now, and I had no idea why she thought that. So there is something about me that can be looked at badly somehow, and I just want to find that out.

Lastly, but this isn't a very big deal, Cree has been saying hi to me a little more often, and not just saying it when I do. But lately I've felt like there's a wall between us. Either she's just not happy, or that's how she normally is and I'm getting the wrong impression, or there's something about me she doesn't like. And I'm afraid to ask her because I feel she would say that nothing is wrong, and then just have an even worse idea of me for bringing it up. That's how it usually goes with people and me. They always think something I do is weird, but it seems normal to me. *shrug*