| No, anime's not boring... at all, but today, nothing
was very interesting. I watched like 7 episodes of DBZ which was
cool, but it just seemed like a normal show, nothing special. There
was nothing new to eat. I played Legaia 2: Duel Saga for a while.
It's starting to get really cool. But see, I can do really cool and
fun things today, and later feel just as bored. Sure it's fun to do,
but I just need something else today. I need to get out or
something, but what sounds good? Shopping? No way, that sounds about
the worst thing to go do right now. A movie? Hey, that sounds nice,
I haven't been to a movie since I saw "Ice Age" and that was a while
ago. Probably the only time I get out is to go to church, work, or
an occasional trip to Putters with Nick. But even Putters to play
DDR doesn't satisfy everything. I guess going shopping with a friend
sounds nice, but not with a guy. The problem is, I don't know anyone
who would want to go shopping with me, and I would be going just to
hang out, leaning on their desire to shop. I haven't hung out with a
girl for some time, the last being when Tracy took me to meet her
fiance, and that was standing in her kitchen and eating dinner with
him and her while they held each other. Not that I object to them
doing such, it's just that it's not really stimulating for me. I'd
like to say I need a car and license, then all my problems of
boredom would go away, but I know they won't. I will still need
someone to go with, someone to go meet. Things like playing DDR is
fun for the time I'm playing, but I want something to keep me happy
when I'm not doing it. I want something to give me joy even when I'm
doing nothing, and when I am bored. I just want someone whom I can
talk to and not have to worry about what she thinks about me, and be
assured knowing she likes me for who I am and that she has a special
place in her heart for me. Maybe I'm asking too much, for it seems
that kind of thing is for other people and it's not my role and I
need to accept it so I can be happier.
...I'm ending it here, this isn't helping. Later.
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