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First, it's been really rainy and windy and cold at
work. Andy's on vacation, Perry quit, so it's just Robert and me to
cover the 2 weeks that Andy's gone. Plus, they are cutting hours.
Blah. First they say for everyone to work their scheduled hours and
nothing more. They have me work for 7 1/2 hours a day, which means I
can either have a half-hour or an hour lunch, and even though they
scheduled me for an hour, I have been taking half-hour ones. They
didn't like that because I was going over the number of hours for
the week that I was supposed to have. It's already bad enough we
only have 2 stockmen right now, and they want to cut even our hours.
One night they had everyone go home at 10 even though our schedules
say for 11:30. Well, I stayed until the carts were all done and it
was until 11:26, so ha to them. I didn't get in trouble for it,
either. Sherene (my manager) saw me still working when she left and
didn't say anything. After Chris said I should have finished the
carts by now (trying anything to not get in trouble for letting me
stay) and after I told him that if I were to leave at 10 then I'd
only have 40 minutes to do the carts since my lunch, and it usually
takes all the way up until 11:30 or later to finish, I couldn't
possibly have finished them by now. He said to hurry up and do it,
then. Duh, I never go slow on purpose. Plus, Mike (the overnight
manager) saw me and didn't say anything. When I said that I guess
everyone was supposed to leave at 10 tonight, he confirmed that
that's what was going on, but didn't say to leave. Ruby told me that
Sherene told her that if a manager doesn't come to your face and
tell you to cut off some hours, then not to worry about it. Well, no
manager came and told me to go home at 10. Plus, I remembered that
before Wyatt got fired, he had everyone go home at 10 once, and I
did, too. The next morning, he and Sherene came to me and asked me
why I had left early the night before. I told them that everyone was
to leave at 10, and Wyatt said, "Oh yeah, I did say that, didn't I?
But that doesn't mean stockmen." So this time, I didn't leave, and I
didn't hear a word about it later on, either. I guess there're
benefits of working outside where you rarely have run-ins with the
managers so they can't tell you things and they forget the next day
with so much on their minds. I've been late probably half the time,
but I still got "meets expectations" for "attendance" on my
evaluation, lol. I haven't heard anything about it at all. Yesterday
I took an hour lunch, but something took a little longer than I
planned, and I clocked back in from my lunch 24 minutes late, so I
had an hour and 24-minute lunch. I told one of the cashiers about
it and she said, "Oh, you better hussle on up there and start
working! You'll probably get it big time tomorrow!" Well, it's
tomorrow, and I haven't heard any trace of it.
But speaking of my lunch yesterday, I have an interesting tale.
First of all, Carly likes "Spirited Away" a lot, and "Princess
Mononoke". She likes the animals and cute parts, and "My Neighbor
Totoro" is by the same animator, and is all cute and animal parts,
so I know she'd like it a lot. I wanted to rent it and see it with
her before I go over on Wednesday or Thursday for her to see
"Treasure Planet" with me, since I hadn't seen it and she said she'd
show it to me. I thought that if I went over there and showed her
"My Neighbor Totoro" before then, we'd still have plans to see
"Treasure Planet", but if I planned it on the same day, it would
only be one visit to her house. So one night I asked her if she
wanted to hang out at her place after work, and she said, "Not
really. I'm going to be downloading songs and stuff." Well, even
though it's her choice to refuse to have me over, things like that
sort of ruin the rest of the night, and I catch myself thinking
about it over and over again. Then I make no effort to cheer up, so
that maybe she'll see me and I'll seem down, and maybe she will want
to cheer me up. It never works, though. When I came home, I talked to
Jamie but I was still down and didn't feel like talking much, and
made her think I was sick or something, or sad that she couldn't
cheer me up. I hate when that happens because then the person who
feels bad, feels like a failure when they're not the one I'm down
about. I know because I always felt like a failure when Kelli was
down about something and I couldn't cheer her up, and then would
always feel worthless when someone else did, and easily, and then
she'd get annoyed that I felt bad because someone else made her
happy and thought that I only did things to make myself look good,
otherwise I wouldn't care who cheered her up. But then Jamie was
really depressed about something and told me flat out that I
wouldn't be able to make her laugh that night, but unlike Kelli and
others in the past, I did get her to cheer up, and she was her happy
self again like she always is around me. That's what I like about
her. I can always make her happy when I try to.
But anyway, back to Carly. Yesterday, which was the day after I
asked if she wanted to hang out, she came into work and I waved to
her and she waved back with a wry smile. I had just found someone's
purse in a cart and was bringing it to the lost-and-found and Carly
happened to be walking beside me, and I held it up and asked if she
wanted a purse. She said "no" like she knew I was being silly but
she was going to give me a serious answer anyway because she didn't
want to be silly. I made up my mind that today wouldn't be a good
day to ask her again. I might as well just not ask her and then
time will go by and the more we don't do anything, the more she'll
want to probably. I'll tell you what happened afterward in the next
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