When I was going to the break room for my first break, Melissa was behind me and saying, "C'mon, walk faster." I didn't know if she was teasing or not. I held the door open and then explained that at least I held the door open. She complained that she was slowed like 12 steps and her break time is limited. I said that maybe if she bought me new shoes, I could walk faster. She said, "Well, that would mean that I had money and I cared about you, and since neither of those are true, you're out of luck."

Ruby was saying how she's heard the rumors that I've been stalking Carly and said she would talk to her. I told her not to worry about it since I didn't want other people getting involved. Well, out on the parking lot, I was rehearsing what I should say to her when I saw her coming out to her car to go home. I was around the same area and I simply said, "Bye, Carly." She mouthed "bye" through her windshield.

When I was on my last break, I saw David and we made plans to finally get together and have me show him and his son my Dragon Ball Z game. When I headed to the break room, I saw Melissa at the vending machine and I wanted something, too, so I stood behind her. She saw me in the reflection and asked what I wanted. I didn't realize that she was asking me what I wanted to talk to her for, so I just said, "C4" because I wanted the Swiss Cake Rolls on C4. Then I realized that she wasn't asking about that, but it was okay because I would probably answer that, anyway. She stopped a second, and said, "I'm not going to buy you anything. You wanted new shoes earlier." I used in my defense that she asked me what I wanted, and she agreed that she did ask me that. She wasn't done, however, and wanted something else because she wanted sugar. The item she bought didn't fall out and she started shaking it with no luck. I grabbed the top of the machine and shook it a couple times and it fell. She thanked me and went to get another thing and that didn't fall, either. She shook it a bunch and it didn't do anything and then she stepped out of the way to let me do it. It didn't work when I tried, either, so I said that I could handle getting one of them, too, so I bought one and it knocked hers and mine out. Fred came out from the back room and asked who was shaking the machine. I said that I was, and he said not to, because it could fall on me, and they have a key in the back. In the break room, Melissa sat across the table from me when we ate our Rice Crispy Treats and I was thinking that she was being friendly toward me again.

When I had clocked out, Tracy was shopping and saw me, so she called me over so I could keep her company. At least she never tires of being around me. When she was finally done and had paid for the stuff, I walked her to her car and we passed Melissa. I said for her to have a good night and she glanced side-ways at me and nodded, like something was wrong again. Well, I'm not going to worry about it, then. People are just weird.

That night, Carly IMed me saying she just wants to be acquaintances and that's it. Basically she's tired of rumors going around and having people coming to her and saying that I've been talking to them, then making fun of me, and she's tired of it. She's tired of wanting to do her own thing and not something with me and then me getting depressed by it and then her feeling bad all the time. She said she would help me and she feels for me, but she's got her own depression and problems to deal with and she's tired of me wanting her "undivided" attention, plus my jealousy toward Nick, which doesn't exist, but she's convinced it does. So anyway, we talked a while and I was kinda ignoring Jamie and Becky because of it, so I'm sorry to you 2 for doing so. Becky was like, "So you lose a friend. So what? They weren't worth it, anyway, if they don't want to be your friend." Yep, sounds like her, lol. She was right, though, I don't talk to her very much, and I should more often. Maybe I'll email her. Jamie was having a bummer day and it didn't help when she tried really hard to cheer me up and didn't do as well as she hoped. It sounds like what happens to me a lot. She did make me feel better, though, but I guess I didn't show it since I was tired, and she felt bad and I don't want her to, because she cares and that's what matters.

It's funny, though, because right as Carly logged off, Kelli IMed me. If that's not taking turns, I don't know what is, lol. We had a nice conversation and, well, maybe there's hope for me yet. It doesn't look good with Carly, but it looked like the end for Kelli and me, so maybe it won't be so bad with Carly, either. I'll just have to wait, as I've grown accustomed to.

By the way, my brother, Matt, is now 14.