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| Problemless with problems by Idec Sdawkminn |
Location: Where angels lose their way... Age: 22 Sex : M |
| What you're good for | 2/18/2004 |
| This is for Kelli. She's not really in the best mood right now, so I thought I'd write an entry for her. She wants to be worth something and she doesn't think she is. She claims to be a bad friend and doesn't understand how people can like her. She doesn't think she's good at anything or can help anyone, and she wishes the above statements were false. Well, they are, she just doesn't see it. She's talented with art. She doesn't really think so, but she is. Maybe she mainly copies from other pictures, but they look good. I can't draw worth anything if I'm not looking off something. She likes making things from clay and painting things, and she's very good at it from what I can see. She expresses her feelings in them and that's what I like. Her art pieces mean something, not just something that looks good. Her poetry is... deep. I can write poems, but mine turn out silly often, concentrating a lot on the rhymes. Every one of hers has a feeling about it. They might not be happy and cheerful, but whenever I read one of hers, I often wonder if I could write like that. I don't comment on them, because I don't know what to say about it. I feel like anything I could say wouldn't do it justice, and a lot of times I don't quite understand what she might be talking about in some of them. She enjoys writing stories about fictional worlds. She has a real knack for character-development and history. She plans out the atmosphere and environment. She really likes doing that and she's really good at it. Granted, it doesn't make a story, but it's a very critical part. I'm much better at the storyline and events than the actual characters who are in them. I'm getting better at character-development, but I'm still nowhere near her abilities. She strives to do well in school and she loves the work that comes with it. I never liked school. The best part about school was coming home and the best part about homework was doing something else. Not for her. She really enjoys it and just excels in it. I'm amazed at how she can sit and work on it and be responsible to do it on time. She's almost always on time to school. I'm really glad for her in that. That's something I was never willing to put much effort into, but she loves the challenge. Caring. She's very good at caring. I just got done with a conversation with her. She was telling me her honest feelings about something even though it might hurt mine. It's important that good communication be there in a relationship (and I don't mean just a romantic one, either). She says she doesn't care often, but she does. If you are mature, you see how she does things that are the best. She might feel like a jerk because of her lack of self-esteem, but she isn't selfish and just taking the easy road. She cares about me enough to be honest with me. She always thinks about my well-being and, being the person that I am, I can see that as a good quality in her instead of just looking at it like a child and being sad because she's telling me something I don't like. It might not sound like I'm saying a particularly good thing about her, but I respect her because of it and I see it as a good thing, so that's what counts.All I want is to be with/around her, in friendship, relationship, marriage, whatever. She's just someone I can be myself around and she brings out the happy/goofy/silly/dorky side of me. Sometimes I try to think of what I like about her, and even though I can't always put my finger on it, there's no doubt she makes me enjoy life, however she does it. Wait, she's not dead. In memory of-- That's the same thing! ~~For my Kelli, may we have good times ahead~~ |
