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Problemless with problems
by Idec Sdawkminn |
Location: Where angels lose their way...
Age: 22
Sex : M |
| My job hunting has slowed down a bit. I called every single place in the yellow pages under the computer service and repair and dropped off cover letters and resumes to all who were accepting them. I've worked on my game a little more and have gotten all the bugs out that I could find. I made a really cool title screen for it. :) I spiffed up the introduction and changed some of the music to be better suited for the event, and all that is left is for my sister to draw how he looks in battle and I'll have the demo done. Kelli's and my friend asked me to send it to him without the battle character drawn because he really wanted to play it, so I did. I haven't heard from him since. I hope it didn't kill him or something, lol. Speaking of hearing from people, my Kelli has gone missing. Oh, I know where she's at, alright, but she hasn't been online for a while. She'll respond to most of my emails and all but one of the times I called she talked to me (she told me she wasn't home one time and hung it up). The whole time she's been gone, she sounded either really tired or really depressed. I have an idea of what could be causing this, but I could be wrong. I just think about her a lot and wonder how she's feeling. I try not to worry about her because, as I've seen, she can take care of herself much better than I could. I just feel bad because I wish she could find happiness and I fear that a lot of what's causing her recent slump is my doing. Then she tried talking to me about it and I took it as she was just reminding me of how much I hurt her and so I'd feel really bad and tell her I was sorry and gave the impression that all I cared about was how this was affecting me. Of course I didn't care about that at all, but sometimes I guess I don't communicate my feelings in an understandable way. We had a few unpleasant emails and I didn't enjoy it at all. I really hate when we fight about something. It makes me feel like such a jerk afterwards and I worry how she feels about it since she does a good job of hiding her feelings. I can't blame her. Nothing good has come from her telling me her feelings. She also said that we don't have a real friendship. Just that comment by itself makes me wonder all kinds of things about how she's feeling and what she thinks about our friendship. A lot of times I don't know if she means what she says or not, but I usually assume that she does. All I care about right now is that we are still good friends. I know she's taking a vacation from talking to me right now, and possibly other people, but not everyone. I miss her, but I know it's possible that things won't be the same when she comes back, so I may be still missing what we had. Well, there goes my worriful imagination. I guess all I can do is wait. |
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