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Problemless with problems
by Idec Sdawkminn |
Location: Where angels lose their way...
Age: 22
Sex : M |
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6/2/2004 |
| Red font. Red stands for blood. Blood is often associated with unpleasant feelings, though blood means life because our bodies need it to survive. Perhaps it's associated with unpleasant thoughts because the only time you see blood is in a situation where something unhealthy for the body happens. Unhealthy... that's how I feel. I feel trapped. I need to do something, but nothing will satisfy the urge. Every second I wish to just pound the desk with my fists. Is it all because I slipped up and peeked at her when she was getting out of the shower? Was the knowledge of me seeing what I wasn't supposed to see that devastating that she won't talk to me or respond to my emails? She claimed that she is taking a break from everyone, yet she told her other friend that she will talk to him. Does she think we aren't good friends anymore? Does she even consider me her friend? I told her that I don't think of her like a lot of guys think of girls. It was a mistake. It wasn't for the purpose of seeing what I did. I just wasn't thinking. I was just going to scare her for fun. I didn't mean any harm or betrayal in it. I wish she would talk to me about it. I'm really concerned with how she is feeling about it and with her avoiding me, it only increases my worries. I can't even concentrate on my game to introduce a totally new and interesting idea that I thought up. I'm lonely without her and I wish I knew what was going on. |
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